TV favourite Alesha Dixon has revealed she contemplated self-harm while ‘heartbroken’ after her marriage to MC Harvey ended following his infidelity.
The former Mis-Teeq rapper has spoken out about her how she needed to ‘start again’ after learning her husband had cheated with friend and fellow singer Javine Hylton less than a year into their marriage.
Dixon told The Sun on Sunday: “I didn’t eat for a few days. I just remember sitting on the floor in my house.
“You ask those questions, ‘Why?’ ‘What have I done wrong?’ .
“I just remember having a feeling when I was driving. I felt so low in myself that I thought I wouldn’t care if the car crashed.”
While still coming to terms with the infidelity revelations and the end of her marriage, the singer was mercilessly dropped by her record label after her music performed disappointingly in the charts.
She said: “I had a lot of pressure on me to see what I was going to do next.
“That was heartbreaking, and I was going through a lot personally at the time. My marriage broke down and I lost my record deal. I essentially had to start again.”
Life took an unexpected turn for the now 40-year-old, when she was offered a place on Strictly Come Dancing in 2007. She won a whole new legion of fans, after she won the celebrity dancing show, impressing judges and audiences alike.
She said: “It was like I had empowered myself and I almost took the control back again. Because prior to winning the show I felt at a loss and was not happy in myself.
“There were so many other things going on underneath the surface.”
Dixon’s music career got a new lease of life, and she become a regular on TV talent shows turning her into a household name.
The Britain’s Got Talent judge said: “The past no longer has any power over me. I have come to terms with it and I focus on the now.
“I’m proud of the fact I feel fearless now. I spent such a long time feeling afraid of everything. Now I feel everything is possible.
“That period taught me that karma exists. I had been dropped from my old label and gone through that terrible year when I thought my life was over.
“But then my career took a life-changing turn.”